6 months ago my family’s life hit crisis. My sister, Bianca (27) was shot.
Dead.
B had always been my best friend, one of the most beautiful women I had ever met and was using her life to change the lives of others. She was living her call passionately.
Why her? Why me? Why us?
This is part of the reality of my life story. Crisis. Chaos. Confusion.
Christ? Where is He in this?
This is another reality of my life story. Could I experience Christ in the Crisis?
This is not trying to explain why bad things happen to good people (Although I believe good and bad things happen to good and bad people...).
This is not trying to explain why evil exists.
This is not trying to explain why a loving God lets so much suffering to occur.
This is my experience.
I felt God told me very clearly that I was standing at a crossroad.
I could begin a journey down a road with a backpack full of questions, hurt, anguish... But the road I would walk would be alone. And the destination? Bitterness, anger, unforgiveness, hatred. I could feel a pull to go down this road...
But God showed me another road. I could begin a journey down a road with a backpack full of questions, hurt, anguish... But on this road, also marked Crisis, I was not alone. Christ was walking with me. On the road marked Crisis, he was walking with me. Even though I have questions, even though I still feel deep pain, I feel Him with me. He walks each step with me. And the destination? Forgiveness, wholeness, peace...
What is your Crisis? If you are alive, you will face one.
Just remember there is another road. And even though we may have to endure some difficulty, if we chose the right road, the destination is victorious!
I’m walking, I can feel the weight of the backpack heavy on my shoulders... But I’m not alone.
Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest." Matt 11:28
Don
"...You know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault; and it will be given to him..." James 1:3-5. We share your struggle and look to Him for daily strength to stand firm in the truth - however hard we find it each day. (Note to self as well!) x
ReplyDeleteYou are not alone...
ReplyDeleteWhat makes it better is this: But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.
Another version: I am with you; that is ALL you need. My power shows up best in weak people.
2 Corinthians 12:9